You (can't) kill(ed) my spirit

After a particularly bad beating one day my abuser started showing his remorse like he did most of the time i told him "You are killing my spirit" I wish I knew then what i know now. The fact is the second those words left my mouth I should have packed up and got the hell out! But I stayed on and endured more. With ever attack a little more of me died away. There was a time I didn't know if I would ever know who I was again. In the last 5 months I have gotten to know me and I realize I am pretty awesome. I know I deserve happiness. Happiness and Love does not come via physical attacks but rather the feeling of safety and security. The hands of the person you love should never hurt.